a swirl
Just can’t seem to get my head screwed on straight this week. Oh sure, I big fat pre-calc test tomorrow AND a practicum in Microbiology. Am I studying? Well, I guess a little. But I’m not hitting the books like a trooper or anything. I sort of wish I were taking another class to keep me more focused! The anxiety of test-taking is far worse than the tests themselves. Yet here I am, sitting in this anxious state, wondering if I’m prepared enough to take on a couple challenges tomorrow. And what the hell is wrong with me that I can’t just open up my lab book and freaking familiarize myself with it’s contents. What am I doing blogging right now? For Pete’s sake, I am ridiculous! I figure this is more productive than surfing perezhilton or even cuteoverload, as I’m at least getting my feelings out, one painful word at a time. I’m even trying to strike bargains with myself such as if you do half a page of math review problems you can read perez for 15 minutes… Alas, it doesn’t work very well. Crap. When am I going to get the hang of this student gig?
Lelo says:
October 9th, 2007 at 4:36 pm
First, I’m loving these photos.
Remember, that’s a good thing. Allow yourself the time and space to learn a new process and way of living: you’ll get there. It’s a lovely world out here. I’m so glad for you that you took the jump.
But to the topic….for me, I’ve learned over the past 10 months or so, it’s a process of working it through. Breaking the cycle takes a long time, it just does. And getting into the groove, for me, just doesn’t happen like that (snapping fingers). Oh no, I’m much more complex than that.